I can’t believe it’s literally been MONTHS since I’ve written a blog post. I’ve had this blog for nine years and had never been away from the blog for this long. If you’re wondering why I was on a hiatus, it’s a little complicated, but let me explain.
I just wasn’t inspired to write, so I disappeared.
I never understood how people could feel this way until it happened to me. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had times in my creative career that made me feel creatively drained, but it always came back to me within a few days. This time around things were different. I started to feel disconnected with Pretty In Pigment, my content, my purpose as a blogger, and this affected various aspects of my life.
This was really frustrating for me because this is more than just a blog, it’s part of my identity. Not relating to my blog felt like I was failing at something much greater. I kept trying to push myself to feel a spark and the harder I pushed, the emptier I felt. This is when I realized that it was time to accept the process of change allow the universe to show me my course.
I took all of winter to give myself space from my blog and explored other interests. I got back into dancing, something I haven’t done in 10 years! I reconnected with friends, spent time in nature, and set social Media time boundaries for myself. I even started a weight loss journey and spent time incorporating a healthier lifestyle. These changes really allowed me to connect with myself.
In this time I discovered that my disconnect was not with Pretty In Pigment, it was actually with myself. I put so much time over there years on cranking out content and pleasing my audience that I forgot why I was doing this in the first place. Another piece of my problem was my move to Seattle. Don’t get me wrong, I love living here, but since living here I don’t have the support system I had back home. The climate here also took a toll on me and I felt lost without the colorful inspiration I am used to from South Florida. I missed those things so much that even started to disappear from my personal aesthetic.
My big revelation came in the most unexpected way. I went to get dressed one morning I and realized that I had a sea of muted clothing in my closet. I love color, and as I sifted through my closet I realized that this closet didn’t represent me anymore. That’s when I realized what was missing in my life— color.
I made it a point to do a massive closet purge and replace my clothing with colors that bring me joy. Prints that make me smile, and a wardrobe that represents my inner child. I was really thoughtful about adding clothing pieces that bring happiness to my closet. I guess you can say that through some new threads, I finally found myself again.
Now that I’ve made it a point to add more color into my life through my clothing and my makeup, om finding color all around me again. I needed to make this change within myself and by doing this it helped me reconnect with my purpose as a Blogger. I feel re-energized to start creating again.
Outfit Details: Pant- ASOS (similar here) | Top- Who What Wear Collection x Target (similar here) | Jacket- Dia&Co | Purse- c/o Fossil Finley Shouler Bag | Shoes- Thrifted Jeffery Campbell Pumps | Necklace-(Craft Show)
Photos by: Erica Esper